I wasn't wondering about any special kind of an University since my try to become an proffesional actress was ruined. I thought that my only worry was to pass the final exams and then doesn't matter what will happen next. Of coure I was accepted to Media relations study, what was great but that wasn't what I exactly expected from life after graduation.
Well, I passed the final exams and suddenly there was it. The World. I do not mean it the way that I have been awaken to reality. I had many plans for summer it was ok but when was summer comming to an end, I was becomming more and more nervous.
The University is a mixture of every possible emotion and if you are lucky as I am you are going through all of them at once.
Firstly, it like amazing, great, super, and so on. All the possibilities and opportunities, that freedom ah. That lasted for first two weeks. I became overmotivated and suddenly extremly tired.
I didn't understand what was wrong. I was trying very hard but didn't feel the satisfaction of a hard work.
Problem was that I forget the most important thing..I wasn't enjoying it. Everything I done was because I must, not because I wanted to. It's a big difference. Sometimes it lasts very long till we can realize how to move forward.
Well, although moving forward is hard and when you are frightened about everything it is even harder. It is about pushing the limits farther. Work has its time and relax has its time.
I went through a change. I stopped thinking about things a started doing them. Something similar to if you know the movie Yes man but not that crazy. Just living live and trying to be happy.
The university is great and future wide open. I want to grab the chance and make the life great. When everything change it does't mean it has to be bad. In my case it was the best thing ever.
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